Who Am I ?

Sometimes I just wonder who I am. I want to be so many people. I love going back in time and living life the old-fashioned way. I read others' blogs about how they are living like our grandparents did and sometimes I think that is me... that is what I want to do. Where I know where all my food comes from.. butchering your own meat, growing your own vegetables, making your own soap and clothes, being so self-efficient. Now I know some of you reading this are thinking, "you've got to be kidding." But what I am saying is.. just knowing that your own hands did most of this work. That you were involved from the beginning of making whatever. That should this whole world go into utter chaos, you would be able not only to survive but thrive. And then... I love our modern conveniences.. I love air conditioning and central heating... a washing machine and a dryer, a dishwasher, television, internet, a comfortable automobile. I love beautiful textiles and how they are made into gorgeous furniture,draperies, and bedding. I love the primitive look and the antique look, but I love the coastal living and the "pottery barn" decor. I have friends that have traveled the world and I have friends that seldom leave the county and all of them are intelligent and know things the others don't know. I love to save money and see ways that I can cut back more and more.. it is like a game. But I also like to go and spend money too. I love to exercise and sweat and know that I am doing my body good, but I like to be lazy on a rainy day and cuddle up under a homemade quilt and read a book. I love to read blogs about what other people are cooking, sewing, and making and view all their photographs as they go about it. I love to be around people and talk and listen, and I also love to be alone in my own thoughts. So gosh.. who am I?